Altered by Chloe Walsh

Author:Chloe Walsh [Walsh, Chloe]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2017-12-22T18:30:00+00:00

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Chapter Thirty-Five

Hope

When I was younger, I always scoffed and rolled my eyes at the idea of a woman not knowing she was pregnant until she was too far along, or giving birth on a toilet bowl.

I used to be so convinced that it couldn’t be physiologically possible.

My opinion towards the concept did a one-eighty when my own best friend didn’t discover her first pregnancy until she was almost five months along.

I'd seen her.

She was skinny.

There had been no signs.

Teagan's situation with Einín had made me believe that there were circumstances when a woman truly didn’t know she was pregnant.

What worried me now, though, was those women who had that gut feeling, who deep down in their heart and soul knew they might be pregnant, but were too afraid to acknowledge it even to themselves.

I feared I was one of the women that fell into the second category.

From the age of thirteen, I'd gotten my period every twenty-eight days come hail, rain, or snow. It never mattered how much stress I was under, or whether I gained weight or not.

My period was always on time.

Therefore, my first red flag was the late arrival of my period.

The second red flag was when I came to realize that my period wasn’t just late; it had skipped clean over the month of June.

Fear of having to face my demons had kept my mind in a constant state of denial.

Knowing would be much harder than not knowing, so I blocked it out – fooling myself into a false sense of security by telling myself that it would come soon.

Well, 'soon' had come and gone.

It was time to face reality.

Clicking into my period app on my phone, I frantically tried to work out my dates.

May 4rd had been the date of my last period, which meant I should have had a period on June 1st.

Today was July 7th.

My fingertips lost all feeling as I found the calculator app on my phone and worked out the days. I had to use a calculator because my mind was fucking blown. I couldn’t form one single, coherent thought as I used my phone to add up the dates.

Thirty-six days.

It had been thirty-six fricking days.

Well, that was that.

I was either broken or pregnant.

Maybe both?

Peeling my frozen body off the couch that had become my bed, I reached into my laptop bag and retrieved the rectangular box with trembling hands.

I'd bought it weeks ago when I had made a rare trip to the store to stack up on food supplies.

But I wasn’t ready to know then.

I still wasn’t ready to know, but I had to do this.

Numb to the bone, I tiptoed up the staircase, trying to be as quiet as possible so I didn’t disturb Jordan from whatever self-medicated trance he was in.

Slipping inside the bathroom, I quietly turned the lock and hurried over to the toilet. Every possible human emotion rocked through me as I removed the stick from the box and peed.

And it was right there in that

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